I Got Worms!!!

Now that I have your attention, Hi! No, I don't really have worms. And no, I'm not using that name for my worm farm business either. I'm referring to these blue things in my arms and hands that I have never seen before, I think they are called veins. Something I thought I never had before. They are becoming more and more noticeable in these last two months. It's kinda nice to see. I would look at body builders and think, damn that is so gross to see, I'm glad my veins don't stick out like that. Well, I'm probably gonna have to get use to that idea because they are pretty noticeable to me while I'm working out.

There are other things that I'm trying to get use to. One, being that I am a two hundred pounder. Meaning, when I say how much I weigh, I get to say two hundred and blank, blank pounds. When I got out of the four hundreds, it was an easy thing to say I'm three hundred and blank, blank pounds. I've at least have said that in my adult life before. Since turning eighteen, twelve years ago, I have never been able to say I'm two hundred something. It's a lot longer than that, but at least in my years of being an adult, I could never say that. I've been trying to figure out for sure what grade I was in when I was two hundred something and I think it was near seventh grade. I know for sure, I was a three hundred pounder going in to high school at the age of fourteen. So as of yesterday, my weight is two hundred and sixty eight pounds.

Another thing I'm trying to get use to is the fact that I'm eighteen pounds a way from my goal weight when I started this journey. Back in August, when I met with my surgeon, he asked what my goal weight would be at the end of this. I told him I would love to be two hundred and fifty pounds in a year and a half. The year and a half is the time frame that most RNYers tend to see all of their excess weight lost, hoping to never find it again! So when I said two hundred and fifty pounds, I figured that would be a year or so away. So to be eighteen pounds away from my goal weight in less than five months is hard for me to comprehend. During my last doctor visit for my three month check up in January, my surgeon asked me again about what weight I'd like to be at the end of this. I didn't really have an answer for that. I never imagined I'd be two hundred and fifty pounds ever in my life. I did tell him I'd like to be two forty by the summer. He's aid that he wouldn't be surprised if I was two forty by June. So my goal weight by June first is two hundred and forty pounds. I did however make a new goal that I'd like to hit by October twenty sixth and that is to be two hundred and fifteen pounds. I would have to lose fifty three more pounds in seven months. That might be a hard one to reach. If I do reach two fifteen I would be, literally half the man I use to be. Half the man I use to be. (STP style)

Four hundred and thirty one pounds use to be normal to me. Now I'm dealing with a new normal. It's definitely a great thing to deal with. Thanks again for all of the support!